Set Me Free

For those looking for poker content, I’m afraid you are going to have to search elsewhere. I’ve been doing a lot of searching myself in recent weeks…. for remnants of my soul. This blog, a reflection of my thoughts, is going to change shape, metamorphosing into something completely unrecognisable. Sometimes, I may write about poker. Other times, I’ll write about whatever I like. No pressure to conform to anyone else’s exacting standards. I want to try things I’ve never experienced before. I don’t know how it’s going to end up, a little like life really. Reflecting on recent years, I don’t like what I’ve become. Hollow, lost. My spirit evaporating a little day by day. It’s time to plug up those gaps in my life and become whole again.

Writing about poker was a useful exercise. It‘s difficult to make a dull subject appear interesting. But I feel like I’ve placed myself unintentionally in a straight jacket. I want to explore myself. See what else I can do. Take these blinkers off and open up my peripheral vision.

I’m in charge of my own destiny. I want to seize life while it’s still there.

There are too many blogs. Too many people on the poker bandwagon, whoring their personal thoughts trying to get noticed, maybe for their own prestige, maybe for an elusive sponsorship deal. Who knows? I feel like I’ve got stuck in a rat race that I tried to escape. Grinding it out at the tables until just skin and bone are left
Not anymore. It’s time to flesh out this skeleton. Reach out and embrace life once more. Being like everyone else has never fitted my character anyway.

I’ve changing… Not sure where I’m going or where this journey will end. So refreshing and fun to be free again.

Trying to understand the true value of life.

Today was a wonderful day for me. Today I realised just how special my friends really are.